dreaming

i keep feeling like i need to justify my dream. i am once again putting myself into a position of acting out of guilt (or not acting)... this idea that i am not worthy (common theme) or that 'living the dream' is ok for someone else but not me. that some how it is perceived as selfish. (i also know that i have created this in my head. and it is only reflected back to me when i speak to other people. if i change my thinking and behavior, those around will change their perception, actions and words they use.)


i'm too old.
i'm too young.
i have everything i could need right now,
why would i want to risk the security i have?
i have a good job.
i have a great place to live.
why would i want to live with less. (stuff and space)
live where there is RISK.
live where there is LIFE.
live where there is LESS.
live where the moto can be... "vamos a la playa" (let's go to the beach.)

i am grateful for... slowing finding out how to negotiate these ideas and resolve them in myself and trust that, no one else's view of the way i want to live matters. (if i harms no one)

... remember to be "Marilee"! not what i think marilee should be.

Marilee thrives in an environment of...
risk
life
less stuff
adventure
unknown
less money
more connection
failures
simplicity
in the moment
feeling productive
embracing what is in front of me
witnessing the lives of others
learning something new every day
eating healthy
being in an active environment