counting

i am feeling weird this evening... not sure if it was the random nap caused by the burritos i made or just the voices in my head taking over.

they are talking about 'fairness'. this is something i struggle with. for example. if you can do something. so can i. if i do something for you, you do it for me... if i put in this much. you put in that much. and often if these things don't happen i find myself feeling resentful, shutting down or just plane pissed.

i am hoping, that with a good book and night of sleep... i'll wake up and have a fresh perspective.

i am grateful... that, over the years i have gotten better. now i can count things in gestures not nickels and dimes. thank yous always count for double. sorries are like gold stars and sincerity and honesty are priceless.